... am ready for the next step. What do I mean? I'm ready to do the next thing that will lead me to the life I want to have. My brain has been ticking along at 90 miles per hour here this weekend thinking along these lines and I'll be writing more about it in the days ahead. I've been feeling restless and a little dissatisfied for a few months now. I wrote earlier in the year about my frustration in finding new ideas to increase my thriftiness in my home and I noted that at this stage of my life, what I need to do is look long and hard at what I want to accomplish and learn new skill sets in order to bring about those changes which will increase savings. Well, ditto that for every area of my life. I want to move on to the next level of learning in diet and wardrobe and decorating and yard/garden work and even here in writing the blog.
I'd planned to take time over the last week or so to start planning and then making goals that supported my plans. Between my family's comings and goings and that nasty virus, I got sidelined hard. However, yesterday afternoon, with the house quiet about me and no real work being attempted, as is usual for Shabat, I found my mind was suddenly full of not only inspiration but intention. While I'd been sidelined, my subconscious had apparently been at work sorting things out and as ideas began to flow I knew instinctively what I needed and wanted to do in order to take my life to the next level. I was so on fire I even managed to sort out a problem that John and I have been facing in our separate ways but when I related to him my insights he agreed that I'd hit on the very things that were needed.
By the wee hours of last night I knew which projects are next on my list, where I wanted to head with the blog, what I needed to see occur in our lives and pretty much the steps needed to take to make that happen. And yes, I did say wee hours. I'm on one of my not sleeping so hot jags and instead of lying in the dark willing myself to sleep when I'm obviously not going to sleep, I let my mind loose to think about things I've not had time to think of during the day. If I sound slightly manic then I confess there's an element of that in these cycles but it is fortunately a controlled thing.
I assure you that I had no idea all this was going on in my subconscious. I was so overwhelmed last week with everything and I mean every.thing. And let me just add here that I thoroughly and completely enjoyed my grandsons and deeply appreciate that they are GOOD boys and not terrors but I was so exhausted by the time they left to go home I have no clue how my brain managed to function on ANY level, must less in the background!
As I said, I'll likely write more about all that came up this weekend. I have learned to keep pen and paper near and have jotted down ideas for blog posts, and short sentences that will remind me of the original ideas.
I am not an 'all or nothing' sort of girl. My home must function at a certain level, my family connections must be maintained and much as I might like to ignore it at times, my budget must be adhered to. I am well aware that as excited as I may be about everything at the moment, reality is that balance must be kept to or everything will crash and burn and I'll end up with a big mess on my hands and a lot of frustration. I do not like to be out of balance.
...plan my work week:
First things first. It's Harvest week. I actually worked on bills last Thursday because I had a block of time without the grandsons and knew that the likelihood I'd have another such block wasn't going to occur. I still need to do one small task, not exactly a minor one but one that takes far less time than the whole process of writing out bills and getting them ready to send off...
Which reminds me, I was asked why I pay bills in this manner, writing checks and using stamps? (A) we do not care to have our financial information on our personal computers. (B) The few bills we have mostly charge $5 a month for the 'privilege' of paying online. Ditto for setting up a monthly auto draft. A 49c stamp is a sight cheaper and our checks are bought for mere pennies. There are others to whom we write a monthly check who do not have an online account. (C) It's one less set of security questions and passwords that must be remembered.
So we'll just stick with our old ways for a while longer. When it's financially prudent to change our ways we shall. Just because it's the 'modern' way doesn't always mean it's the least expensive or wisest option.
Sort out the fridge. I don't know what's in there after last week.
Make more yogurt. Just opened my last jar. I have a new recipe I want to try and see how I like it. It's supposed to be a lot less fussy and it's meant for making a small batch.
Make Challah for Shabat and angel rolls.
Do the next steps with that flower bed under the faith tree. I'd really hoped I'd be done with it by this time but it didn't happen. I shall lay weed mat and lay blocks this week. If I can get to the store for mulch I'll get a couple of bags and finish off that project entirely for now. At the least, I have weed mat and stones and I think I have enough stones to finish off the circle about the tree.
I also need to put some mulch down in the flower bed where the old chairs are. Maddie has pretty much ruined one section of that flower bed and weeds are rapidly spreading throughout the whole. In fact, Maddie has done more this year to UN-do things that have previously been done, sigh... I need to do some repair work and maintenance on that back porch bed and mean to get started on it. It's not the area I meant to focus on for the month of August, but then again, I'm hoping it won't take all of August to fix this spot. Then I can start on the next focus area of the front of the house which oddly enough also borders the back porch and is victim of Maddie's destroying ways.
Sewing: MUST: Hem John's work pants, make necessary repairs on a slipcover and put it back on the chair it came off of. Nice to get to if I can: making a pillow cover for a cushion on the chair in my bedroom.
Get my house whipped back into shape. It's not a horror but there's a good two days steady work wanted to get this place back up to par. I did what I could this past week and accomplished more than I thought I might but...Oh and I can't say enough about how obliged I feel to all this housework for waiting so patiently upon me to attend to it...ha!
Plan a menu for family day in September. Pull some recipes for August menus while I'm looking and planning.
My Home Keeping notebook is no longer working for me as is and really there's little need of it. I am going to move to some sort of planner and repurpose the notebook and divider pages for another project. I'll take time this week to find the planner I want and set it up so it will be most useful to me.
Those lists I meant to make are still waiting to be made, too. I should have plenty of time this week to attend to these things and whatever else I can manage to throw in.
I have been thinking of meals I want or would like to make in these late night sessions of mine...Or I am drawing inspiration from cooking shows I watched this past week or a blog post. A mix of routine and not so routine meals follows:
Pasta with fresh tomato sauce and fresh Mozzarella, Green Beans with Mushrooms and Garlic, Green Salad, Crusty Bread
Meatloaf, Mashed Potatoes, Coleslaw, Butter Beans, Peach Cobbler
I'm going to try either a crockpot recipe or use the electric skillet to prevent heating up the house with the oven when I make the meatloaf. I know there's a recipe online for cobbler in the crockpot, too...Gotta look that one up again.
Tuna Pasta Salad, Sliced Cucumbers, Saltines, Orange Segments or Peaches
Fruit depends on what's in market and whether or not I make it to the peach shed at Zenith Mills.
on my own x2
a leftovers day
Roast Beef, Steamed Broccoli, Baked Potatoes, Rolls
A roast will net us sandwich meat as well as entrée.
...plan my leisure:
There are a few wants on my list this month: a certain book I've had in the past and gave away and deeply need at the moment, bras, a couple of things for my refurbished desk area, etc. I do not get the opportunity to shop on my own very often. Too often I am at the whims of Mama or John. I plan to take a day to go out and do a bit of shopping. I'll have lunch out on my own, take my time, browse through a thrift shop (where I expect to find the book and with luck frames or artwork and just maybe a clock), and go into one or two other stores. It mightn't sound like leisure but it IS when I'm not on someone else's schedule or party to their own agendas. So SHOPPING with a purpose.
Lunch out with Mama.
Watch one of my DVDs while I'm on my own. I am feeling Jane Austen-ish.
A spa day. I haven't had one in ages. I'm due a fresh pedicure this week and it would be nice to be smoothed and buffed and polished and freshened all at once.