I have always loved those pages in Encyclopedias where you open the page up and there is the skeletal system, then you turn a clear page and there are the organs, then another page layers on the muscular system and finally you turn the last page and there is skin and hair and a person. As I've studied genealogy I've wished often for such transparency sheets to overlay maps of the states where my ancestors lived. So often it appears they have moved but what changed was boundary lines, new counties formed, old townships died and faded away and the relative rarely left the place in which they had settled after migration from another state.
I have often said with my blog that I wanted to share myself with you all. To be transparent. Who I was, where I am in my mind/spirit/life span, my financial circumstances, my talents, my lacks of talents, my hopes and my loss of dreams. I have tried to do so without revealing personal information that might be irresponsible. But I've also wanted to share a little more. It has actually been on my heart and mind now for a number of months that I needed to go deeper in sharing myself, my very inner self, though you might well think I've done quite enough of that already.
I want to be transparent to you as much as I can without causing harm to others who may have intentionally or unintentionally done me damage, or revealing things that are more reflective of the character of another than myself. It's one thing to share my failures and failings and foibles. It's mean spirited to share those of others. At least in a more or less public setting, I've found it especially difficult to balance the pointing out of my failures without revealing what caused the situation in the first place.
